Once is enough

Since I can't sleep so decided to blog! Oh well, tml is Friday man! TGIF!! Haha. So what's the plan for tml night?! As usual ppl go club and drink. Sometimes I thinking if I have a bf Friday I would go for a movie. Need some healthy lifestyle. Keep drink will die! Just think only. Oh my. Wait till I found 1 that is really can settle down. Busy with work!! Work until pek cek but still have to work. I need a break man. Sis is asking mi to go bkk. I really wish to go but I know somehow if I go my heart is here. Ask myself can I leave everything behind and leave? I have no ans for this. Perhaps should leave and when I come back everything start all over again. When I think of it, is still hurts. Once is enough. I can't take it anymore. I pretend I don't care but I know I care. Everything should really come to an end!
好累了!

I will keep you by my side

Working right now. Nothing much to do. So decided to blog. Is coming to the end of the month le. Time flies! Last week Friday Saturday Sunday avatar! Straight 3 days also drink! Will die man! Sunday also go club is like wtf! I'm so tired and shag cos I'm lack of sleep but yesterday I sleep early but still not enough. Today I gonna sleep early too! Haha. Erjie is going bkk and gf also going too! They going at the same date. I wanna go too la!!! But have to find the right person to go with mi and them! Thinking who to ask. How?!:( I need a break!

Sometimes I wonder what am I to you?! Do you really care? Is not important anymore. You leave mi hanging and I'm still waiting.
是我还放不下!

I'm done!

Friday went titanium with the girls! Is awesome man! All of us drink drank and get high! Around 2 plus my sis and 2 more gfs went butterfly to look for my friend the rest stay at titanium. Seriously titanium is still the best! Haha. Went there awhile then back to titanium. Like a hopper lor. That night wan fun!! Sat titanium again!! Is like our playground le. As usual 2 plus went avatar with 1 of my girl to look for king. There also fun. Drink drank drunk night! Stay there till they close then went home! What a crazy weekend I have but also a tiring one. I not enough sleep. So later I gonna sleep early le.

Wondering why you must do all this to mi?! Is this fair? I given everything yet I get in return is this shit! I told myself won't even bother that much but what you say is still hurts alot! Why?! I'm tired but why can't I let it go? I just want it to better. But just can't go that way!
是我爱错人, 好累!

What am i doing?!

Last week titanium with the girls! Was awesome this is what i can say. After that mi and 1 of my gf went butterfly. Cos we nv go before. So we went and is boring! The siam bu there can't make it! That day nv drunk at all. Oh well, it seems you wan to get drunk but you can't when you don't wan you will drunk. Funny isn't? I really don't know what i'm doing seriously. Why everything become like that?! I'm not like this before but why? Do i deserve all this shit from you? I wonder if i nv know you. My life and everything will be better. But now? Someone pls whack mi hard and ask mi wake up! I'm stuck, nothing i can do. Not even a word you leave mi there hanging. How good can this be uh. I already prepared for the worst but you don't even say anything to mi. I'm really tired! I really wish that i let go everything and stop all this. Nobody will understand! Even you!




Let this be the last time!
I have enough..

Can i?!

Yesterday went titanium with my gfs! I just wanna drink and get drunk for that very moment! Don't wan to think so much but can i?! I can't even sleep properly and keep run into my mind! Making mi hanging there nothing i can do. I'm suffering i feel the pain. What about you?! I know you have your own things to settle but you can't just make mi hanging there. Is this the way you treat mi as one? Why things must happened in this way when i try my best and give everything i could! My heart really hurts alot, too much! This is the reason why i feel the pain cos i love you more than you do! Leave mi or hold onto mi. I will nv leave no matter what happen but you? Can i still trust you?! Tell mi! I just want everything to be better abit. Simple yet is so hard for us! Tears just can't stop once i wake up tears will drop down. Seriously this hurt so much so much!

After everything i'm still the same. Single life for mi?

Wake mi up when september end

Now i know karma hit on mi! I really so lost and don't know what to do. So long nv had this feeling and now the feeling suck ttm! Why must be him?! I give and try my best yet still the same! Why?! I know i may be sensitive and so you nv say it. But i know myself! What i wan is just everything to be better. But i doubt so. I found myself lost in the island. After S have left i nv felt like this and i thought nobody will make mi feel like this again. Now you appear and you make mi feel like this for you but what's the point?! Is too hurt to hold on to it! You will nv understand how suck it can be! Let's forget about everything!

I don't want think so much.

I'm the one who feeling hurt not you!

Let it go before is too!

I know the reason...